It was November 19th 2017
I stopped by my Mothers house to use some WIFI. When I walked in the garage door my mom was on the phone talking to someone but she was also bawling her eyes out. So I went inside and messaged her telling her that even though I don’t live there anymore she can always still talk to me.
She told me to come out to the garage where she was sitting when I first walked in the door. The thing that she didn’t know is that I am a very snoopy daughter. I ended up reading a text from my mother to my grandmother. It went something like “don’t tell the kids anything until I am sure of it” So me being my, I though the worst before I even knew anything at all. At first I thought it was lung cancer due to her smoking so much. I hid that since I saw the message for about four days until my mom finally told me what she thought was happening.
Now I am a lot like my mother, she thought the worst before she was even diagnosed with stage 4 Metastatic Cholangiocarcinoma. Now remember how I said I kind of already knew? Well when she sat me down she was explaining that the doctors may have found some cancer cells. As soon as she said “Can…” I already knew.
You know that feeling when you get told some real bad news and your heart kind of drops and you realize what she said but you cant move or speak and you just start to shake and cry like you have never cried before. That was what my day was like. It still hasn’t gotten better for my mom, my family or me.